The Big Day Back

One of the hardest days of my life little one! I had the chance to feed you before I left. You weren’t quite awake yet – just your typical morning feeding – half asleep and half awake. You were so hard to put down. I wanted to stay and cuddle with you longer. I was almost late lingering. I did it though. I left you with daddy and headed to work. All day long I thought about you guys. Do you have enough milk, will daddy know what to do, or will you forget who I am? We had three months uninterrupted together but I was convinced I was just the lady who fed you and you weren’t going to recognize me when I came home after a 12 hour shift. It was a miserable shift. I came home though and you seemed perfectly content with daddy. I felt sad at first because it did seem like you didn’t need me, but ultimately, it made me so happy to know that I had a husband who I knew loved you so much that he could do just as good a job with you as me. You guys made it unscathed and I got my cuddling in that night.